Last Week of the Quarter

So the end of the quarter is coming up. I have finals, now. I'm not particularly stressed, they're supposed to be easy.

Next quarter I have a light load to accommodate my Seasonal Affective Disorder (SADs). Just Accounting, Choir, and Tai Chi. I was going to take Yoga, but it conflicted with Choir. I now only have classes on tuesday and thursday. I think I'll be wandering in to socialize on the other days, but no more catching a 7:06 bus!

My mother is now following my blog. There appears to be no escaping her. She is on facebook, she is on my blog.... She's not on myspace, but I'm not really using myspace these days. Sheesh.

There is a REASON that cows don't yodel!

Mostly, a yodeling cow sounds very silly.
Now I suppose you'll be wanting some context for this bizarre statement. Basically, I have a tendency to say "mao" a lot, and GG always says "moo" back. Well, five minutes ago, he gave a very long and yodel-like moo, and I replied with "There's a REASON that cows don't yodel!" GG thought that was hilarious and said that it should be a title for a blog post. Since we couldn't decide who's blog it would go better with, we're each writing one. This is mine, obviously. GG's blog can be found here: nudegary.blogspot.com.

Updates: I am settling in to college life nicely and quickly found the group of people most like my friends back home. Go figure, I wasn't even looking for them. The people I made friends with just happened to be extraordinarily like my friends in Bellevue.
I have resumed work on my book and am considering finishing a short story I started back in July. My only problem with the short story is that it's very disturbing and I'm a bit afraid to finish it. I already know how it goes in my head, but I'm hesitant to put it on paper.

by the way, can you readers start commenting so I know if this blog is actually getting read or if I'm just jabbering away to myself?

I LIVE!

I have survived my first day of college! And even had a chance to draw my symbol on my arm during one of my classes. The red ink doesn't work well, it makes it look like I cut the symbol instead of drawing it. Next time I will use black ink.

Actually, it was pretty uneventful all things considered. I had some free time to do some writing, and so I started writing a sort of extension of this role-playing thing I found online that seems to have died. And I do mean died. The link doesn't work anymore. It's a sort of military-vs-zombies thing. Not my usual style, but the characters we were playing with were interesting.

I also survived the second day. Oddly, my Tai Chi instructor didn't show up this morning. It gave me extra free time before choir.

I am such a flake.

Ok, so I just remembered that I haven't remembered my blog for a while. Silly me. I apologize to anyone who has been waiting with bated breath for me to write again.

School is going to start on monday. I have Accounting I and College Study Skills on monday and wednesday, English 100, Choir, and Tai Chi on tuesday and thursday and Accounting I again on friday. Apparently I'm going to need most of my "free time" for studying. I wonder if my school load will be light enough for me to get a part time job at a yarn shop. I wonder if there's a yarn shop for me to get a part time job at.

I moved up to my grandparents today, but I have to go back and pack some more things next weekend. At least the things I think are essential are here. Clothes, makeup, books, things I need to get on with writing my book, and my mini laptop. I actually have a new desktop computer, but the store had to order some parts, so I haven't taken possession of it yet. I'll have it next weekend.

Speaking of my book, I really have to get on with it. It's another thing I haven't updated lately. See post title. I've been reading webcomics. I recently discovered User Friendly, and now I'm hooked. I've reached 2006 in the archives.

I promise to try and remember to tell you about my first day of school monday evening.

Turmoil

Just a few years ago I knew who I was, what I was, and where I belonged. I knew what it meant to love. I knew about hate, but I had never experienced it, and I never believed that hate and love could coexist. I knew the difference between good and evil, and I trusted God to keep me safe.

Within nine months, I lost all of that. I was never so lost last year, at the height of my depression. I find myself being someone other than who I thought, something I can't explain, and I can't stand the place I thought I belonged. I fell in love and then my feelings got screwed up. I have hated someone while loving them at the exact same time, and now I'm not even sure which is which. The terms "good" and "evil" have no meaning, and I turned my back on the Christian God and turned to the Pagan goddesses, and realized that I can't count on any of them to protect me.

Have you ever been so confused and upset that you had to force yourself to keep breathing?

The hardest part of having all problems being mental/emotional is no one understands. There is no support group for this kind of situation.

A running commentary on Eragon (the movie version )

What! The cousin leaves! What about Katrina?
Aww. The baby dragon is so cute.
Ooh. Eragon is MY age!
How can a rider stand to live without his dragon? I think it would be very hard to have something that close to you to be in you thoughts suddenly be gone.
Not related to Eragon: my cat is too cute.
Eragon is an idiot. Saphira had to choose an idiot.
Doesn't anyone explain the laws of etiquette to villains? There's a proper way to be evil!
Zar'roc is a gorgeous sword. I want.
Everyone expects a dragon rider to be more than Eragon. Gotta feel sorry for him, having to hear that from everyone.

Overall: How they intend to make the second and third movies remotely like the books I don't know, but this was a good movie anyway. They'd better make the second and third movies, though. Or else I sue. Oh wait, I can't sue. The judge said that if he saw me in his court room again he'd throw me out the window. Lets hope I'm not a witness in a murder case he presides over. Actually, let's hope I don't have to be a witness in a murder case in the first place.

Ghost Hunters

Ok, Ghost Hunters is my new favorite show. It kind of creeps me out, but then I read Steven King before going to sleep at night.

GG and I are thinking of trying to trick them. We'll make up something about this.... thing.... that I used to see as a young child. We'll pretend I'm seeing it again and call up TAPS. We're looking to see if they fake their content. Granted, I really did see it as a child, but I probably just imagined it. I had an overactive imagination back then.

Hmm. Monster Quest is on in 20 minutes. I wonder if I should watch that, or more Ghost Hunters.....

Getting married

So I just watched the episode of The Closer where Brenda got married. My mother told me that she's going to cry BUCKETS at my wedding. So now I'm thinking about it (my wedding). I want a Celtic handfasting, and I will NOT be wearing white, thank you very much. I'll be wearing green. And I think I'll have the ceremony in a traditional Danish setting. That will combine my favorite parts of my heritage. But no poofy white dresses!

Oh jeez. Mama's crying just THINKING about my wedding. She's going to get me started....

Oh, I can't wait to fall in love and get married and start a family. Pity HE didn't work out.

Ok, to recap

After a family counseling meeting a couple weeks ago, the family realized that everyone had something to gain from mother and I moving into an apartment for a while. First, do not get the wrong idea, my parents are not separating. What is happening is we're getting out of the way so that my dad can get the house cleaned without worrying and taking care of us. I'm actually not going to be at the apartment much. I've got school and packing at the house through the end of June (school is way late this year, we had a teacher's strike and stormy weather). Then I'm spending July with my grandparents doing all sorts of things. We have an event in Canada, a music festival, and art show, and Critical Massive. I'm hoping to go visiting relatives in Nevada and Colorado in August, and then I'm moving in with my grandparents in mid-late September.

Oh, and my other grandparents are in a fuss. They're older and never quite got the concept of kids growing up and leaving the roost. They got it into their heads that my parents' marriage is falling apart and they're giving their daughter (me) away and it's all going to hell. We convinced them that the marriage is ok, but now they think that we're not getting the apartment. I don't know what they think concerning me. But then, they misunderstand almost everything.

seen the news lately?

So apparently this abortion doctor was killed. Ana believes that abortion is murder. I think that there are circumstances where it would be for the best, but that it shouldn't be the first consideration when a single woman gets pregnant. What I find odd is that the people who are so opposed to taking the life of a child would so readily take the life of an abortion doctor (or a woman who had an abortion).

Also, it's not as if the pro choice people are saying that you should get pregnant so that you can have an abortion, they're pro CHOICE, that means you can choose not to have an abortion, too.

On an other topic: why are we getting daily coverage of big topics like GM's bankruptcy when nothing new is happening? We seem to be repeating old stuff so we can fill up an hour of news.


I watch the News Hour with Jim Lerher, by the way.

What a rollercoaster time.

My birthday is in two days! I'll be 17 in just two days! EEEEEEEE! I'm so excited.
So, in two days I'm taking a group of friends to the movies and dinner at our favorite restaurant and ice cream.
One problem with my birthday, it's also my time of month. Doesn't that suck? So what a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Hate, sorrow, lust, love, betrayal, AUGH! The betrayal thing isn't even new, and wasn't even a betrayal exactly. Another reason to get out of Bellevue. Get away from him and all the bad feelings associated with him.

Monster Quest

So tonight I'm watching Monster Quest on the History Channel. This is sort of a commentary while I watch.

We're in florida in search of a sea monster. Apparently there are many reports of it throughout time. A sort of flordian nessie. It seems very fishy to me. There are too many ad breaks. It shouldn't be so long, considering how little material they have. It appears to be a manatee. The only time they've ever actually found anything is a chupacabra. It was dead. Oh look, my cat is watching the show. I think he thinks the sea monster looks like lunch.

New episode: In Tazmania looking for a supposedly extinct tiger. It looks like a wolf that can dislocate its jaw. Freaky looking thing with it's mouth open. He ran after a dangerous predator? What is he thinking? They have a visual and audio decoy, but does it smell right? They're crashing around so much, it's going to run from them. Huh. They want to clone a tasmanian tiger. The DNA is in complete, so they're adding tasmanian devil DNA into the mix.

Ok, what is with these Quiznos ads? I know that innuendo sells, but this is too much, it's downright sickening. I am never eating at Quiznos again. Never.

News

So my parents and I were visiting my grandparents yesterday. These are the same grandparents I"m going to be living with next year. GL (Grandma Liz) gave me some calendula, snapdragon, lady's mantle, cyclamen, and a primrose. The calendula and snapdragon seeds were just planted and will need to be kept inside for a while. The lady's mantle will need to be planted almost immediately. And the cyclamen should be planted fairly soon.

I started writing this yesterday, and this morning I was fairly upbeat. Then I went to check on my pet snake, Draco, and found him dead! Waah! We're burying him under the florabunda bush, which will not be disturbed during my gardening.

Politics

Well, I hate politics in general, nothing good has come of it in years. But I think we're on an upward turn with President Obama. The thing is, politicians are full of bleep and will say anything to get elected. And some of them don't even seem that smart and refuse to listen to reason. And it seems that most of the people in charge are more into self-interest than the welfare of the nation. Also, why should the country be the rich people? They have too much power while the poor don't have enough.

Another thing, why is there still discrimination? White, black, male, female, young, old, christian, muslim, jewish, pagan. How are any of these less human or less worthy? And what about asians and hispanics and the others facing discrimination that isn't so well publicized? How can people get away with paying someone less than others based on anything but performance? How can people get away with genocide? Heck, why must there be wars based on feuds thousands of years old? Can't thesen people get over their legacy of hate and get along? What about feuds that no one even rembers how they started?

If you haven't watched the movie Bulworth, you should. If you have, you know what I'm talking about. Now, HE had some ideas. "Everybody just gotta keep fucking everybody til we're all the same color". I particularly like his Obscenity speech. My favorite part. And he is absolutely right during it.

Now let's talk about the schools. We're so interested in academia that we're not getting life skills. We need people with real world experience teaching in classrooms, not people who only know how to teach and what they're supposed to teach. My mother had a Business Writing class in a college that boasted teaching skills that could actually be used. She also was having some real world experience with business writing at the time, and she knew that using what the class taught her would be counterproductive and make her lose credibility. It's insane. And on to high schools here in Bellevue. They are so obsessed with looking good and pushing us into AP classes that they're ignoring our needs. You are expected to take hard classes, take as many AP tests as possible and go to college. What if you don't want to go to college? What if you can't handle AP? And the curriculum, it's awful! The math, it's supposed to be "real life" oriented, and the scenarios are pointless and the teaching is awful and you're expected to take a class as hard as possible. Well, some people just aren't good at math, and not every job requires math. We're supposed to be "well rounded" but we're just adding stress and frustration. And if you're failing, you're practically encouraged to drop out. The problem is that the people in charge don't understand what really needs to be taught and how to teach it. In fact, we are teaching to test. We are teaching how to take the WASL, how to take the AP exams, how to take the SAT/ACT. And teachers are paid so little! They have some of the most important jobs, and they are paid less than people who write novels. It's the non-essentials that get big bucks. Things we don't need, whereas things we DO need get cut more and more!

Ok, I'm out of writing time, so I'll stop here for now.

sorry I've been a while

Answers to random questions:
1.If I am turned and then get pregnant, will my child be a vampire? Sometimes, sometimes not, sometimes a hybrid. It seems to be random.
2.Are there real slayers? Yes, but they only step in if there seems to be a problem.
3.How do cats/dogs react to vampires? Cats like vampires, dogs it varies, just like with humans.
4.I've heard "the Sleeper" mentioned a few times on "real vampire" websites. Is there such a vampire? Not that Ana knows of.
5.There was a vampire book where the vampire would mix blood in with his food and drink. Do other vampires do that? No.

I'm working on starting a garden. I'm going to see if I inherited Mama's black thumb.

Oh! We've got a new idea! We're thinking about moving to Europe in a few years. It probably won't be too soon since Ana and her friends are looking into buying a house, rather than renting as was originally planned. We're not exactly sure how we're going to get into Europe, but we'll see. I have some relatives that will probably help us financially.
I hope we can get to Europe. I like it there. I really love Italy, especially.

Cats

Yesterday we took my cat to the vet because he's been sick. I was very worried about him. I like cats better than most people in general, and this is a cat that I'm particularly close to. But this got me thinking. I can't really imagine living without a cat, but I know that cats can recognize vampires. I don't know if cats avoid vampires, though. That would suck. This goes on the list of things to ask Ana when I send my next email to her.

Wait! I remember something! Once when Ana was at my house, we passed my cat (the same one who is sick now), and she petted the cat as we passed and he didn't mind. I think cats are ok with vampires. Still want to ask Ana for confirmation, though.

What a day

Here I am in my glorious easter dress and having a bad day. First, another car hit ours on the way out of the church parking lot (I am not Christian, I just sing in the church choir. It's more a music thing than a religious thing). No one was hurt but now we need to get our car repaired and a rental because I have to be up in Bothel for an appointment tomorrow and there's no time for the bus. When we got home after talking to the police and doing the great information exchange, we determined that there's something wrong with Toby, our cat. Bear in mind, I love cats more than humans. So tomorrow we will call the vet to have Toby checked out and figure what's wrong with him.

On a different note, I found a blog that supposedly belongs to a vampire. I've yet to confirm, but I think not. If you want you can check it out. vampireblog,com. Cpmments by me will be from white dark.

Sent a note to Ana today, asking about werewolves. I'll be posting about them when I hear back.

Introduction

My Name is Bodil Marie. My best friend is a vampire. Her name is Ana. We're separated right now, but when we reunite, she's going to turn me into a vampire. I look forward to it.

I'm writing this blog because I need something to do with myself while I wait out my time here. I figure broadcasting my life and thoughts will give me something to do. Maybe when I'm a vampire and have too much time on my hands I'll do a Life of a Vampire blog. We'll see. Anyway, I may as well give a recap of my life at the moment so here it is:

I was a freshman at Newport HS when I met Ana. She was a new student of my grade and came in the middle of the first semester. The counselor decided that I should show her around and help her get to know the school. Then I kind of lost her. Oddly enough, she fell into my group of friends while I wasn't looking. Funny how that worked out. Anyway, she, I and a girl named Mariah became best friends. She had family issues and got placed in a foster home. It came to my attention that she was only eating one meal a day (lunch at school). In an attempt to help her, I started giving her a bag dinner every day. I have no way of knowing if she ate it or not. At the end of that year, she was sent to Portland to live with her dad.

A year passed. I thought I'd never see her again. During this year I fell into a deep depression and tried to kill myself. I was then put on antidepressants which have worked for the most part.

At the beginning of my junior year (this year), we were reunited. She was back in her mom's care and back at Newport. It turned out that her dad had moved just before recieving Ana and she had been in Spokane for a year. I think it was the end or september or the beginning of october when she started to plan to run away, back to her friends in Spokane. I decided to go with her. I was weary of life in Bellevue. Most of our friends knew she was going. Only a few knew that I was going with her. We invited some other people along, but they politely declined. That was when she told me that she was a vampire and that she could read minds (or rather, she could hear the thoughts around her). Very Twilight, I know. It explained a lot, including her unwillingness to eat and sensitivity to sound. Then the trouble started.

Mariah became very upset that I was going. She tried to talk me out of it. She tried to scare me out of it. She did everything she could to keep me here. Finally, a day or so before we were going to leave (the date was set for Oct 28), Mariah told the school counselor. I tried to stop her. Threatened to kill myself if she ratted me out. She did it anyway. There wasn't much fuss about running away, they were more concerned about the suicide threat. It was hard to convince them that I'd only said it to try to stop Mariah.

My parents kept me home from school for a while. It was decided that I would be home schooled the way I was in middle school. Except for one class, Chinese. I still take that at Newport. Ana disappeared. I assumed that she had gone to Spokane without me. Time passed.

I finally managed to reach her on www.gaiaonline.com. It's a sort of social networking site. She told me that she had come back from Spokane to deal with legal issues and would be going back to Spokane legally. We arranged to meet. We talked and exchanged some contact information so we could keep in touch easier. We agreed that I would join her when I'm 18 and then she will turn me into a vampire.

In the mean time, I am going up to Bellingham to live with my grandparents. I've come to really hate Bellevue. Oh, I forgot to mention that I stopped being friends with Mariah after that stunt she pulled on me. Anyway, while I'm up in Bellingham, I'm going to do Running Start. For those of you who don't know what that is, I'll be taking college courses for both high school and college credit at a community college. And the school district will pay the tuition. It's going to be better than high school (HS curriculum sucks, college's is better). I'll finish my high school requirements and get in a few business and accounting classes. I intend to open a yarn shop when I'm in Spokane. I have a thing for yarn.

That brings us up to the present. I'll update again soon (I hope). For now I'm going to listen to an audiobook version of the Anne Rice books.